The heat of a pivotal love by Al-Logaha Hand
Striking the seed
Reach out into the plentiful field of desire
Dangling I dream
I can’t stand still when you linger far away from me
Your eyes hidden rent asunder
I feel the window beating from the late night breeze
My eyes are heavy with tears
Why won’t you touch me???
You are close enough to touch but I can not feel your heat
My ear is laden with metal
The swimming nature of the jewelry that sits calls out to the rage within me
It is displaced by my swinging hips
My chest breathes like a amour is suffocating its essence
Star struck and captured by a fighting sun set
Letting loose of a love gone wrong
You loved everyone but me
You touched a stranger and my eyes wept from the heat of misunderstanding
Swarming bees sing about the sweat dripping from my pores as I throw water to breathe silently knowing your blank stare could kill me
Can I not call out to you
I sleep with a heavy head transparent to the dust on the ground that makes my eye water and you blame the drugs
You scratch my heart and it hurts
Who will care for me if my body leaves itself in the illness of time and recovers not from spinning turnips
The ghost looses itself and I wonder
Will I transform into a sapless spinster or will the heat of my love transform my lover into an eager transpondent?
Till now I walk
On the hot surface of deep African roots
On coals that last hours
Beginning I go first
Will my lips wake you up?
Will not the relentless sun speak?
Will not a yogi sufi ear save me?
Letting my body fall down onto a whispering copybook
Let the letters spill out till my home speaks for my freedom from your torturous ways
I am eager to be heard
Let the peaches that fill my tummy speak volumes of the years I have waited for you
And let dedication be the pondering medicine that claims my being as we make love an angel and time a claim for it means to be a proud covered woman, laying claim that God’s laws have made us free while you claim my soul I walk alone proud that you didn’t kill me but that I am saved by the dream of you